Birthday Reflection

There’s a lot that I would like to say today but I’m going to do my best to keep it from turning into a novel. Lol 😂 ⠀

I’d like to take some time to reflect back over this year since tomorrow is my birthday and I’ll be turning 24.⠀

I can’t say that this year wasn’t hard. ⠀
I can’t say that I was always happy.⠀
I can’t say that nothing went wrong.⠀
I can’t say I had perfect health. ⠀
I can’t say that my life was perfect.⠀
I can’t say that I didn’t make mistakes. ⠀
I can’t say that it was the best year of my life.⠀
I can’t say that I didn’t let people down. ⠀

You see just like you, I struggle with hard things. Just because I’m focused on this ministry/blog that God has called me to doesn’t mean I’m perfect and have it all together. In fact, I’m far from having it all together. Most days I’m a hot mess no makeup and hair a mess. I might not be perfect but I can be authentic.

What I can say is this!⠀

I can say that my faith grew stronger.⠀
I can say that God never failed me.⠀
I can say that even through hard times I made it.⠀
I can say that my health issues don’t define me.⠀
I can say that God loves me.⠀
I can say that I’m a child of the King.⠀
I can say that I made new friends. ⠀
I can say that I’ll be alright with God’s help.⠀
I can say Jesus is my everything! ⠀

This year brought me closer to God. I made new friends for which I am so thankful and blessed. I’ve continued to grow the friendship with my current friends and I’m looking forward to what 24 will bring me.

If there is one thing that I learned again this year it’s that God uses super-hard seasons to bring you closer to Him. He uses people in your life that will come alongside you and walk this journey with you. This year has brought a lot of depression and me asking God why so many times.

However, I’m so incredibly blessed to have a wonderful group of supportive friends that will pray for me, love me, help me grow in Christ and most of all just be my friend. I have amazing parents who are always there for me no matter what.⠀

So today I chose to look back and spend my last day as 23 clinging to all the promises and truths God has for my life. I’m excited and scared at the same time to see what 24 will bring me. 

Grow Through What You Go Through

🌱Grow through what you go through! 🌱

If you’ve been following me for any time now you probably know that I like to be 60768785_2257299101200538_3828098823301890048_otransparent and honest with you all. I like to speak what’s on my heart. ⠀⠀

Recently I’ve opened up with struggling a lot with life, health issues, my ministry, and writing. It’s scary to be vulnerable with you but I want you to see not just the good but the messy and hard. I don’t want you to think I’m perfect because God knows I’m far from it. I want you to know that I’m relatable and human just like you. ⠀
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I’ve had a few deep conversations with close friends and mentors lately. Each of them reminded me that it’s okay to feel like this. It’s okay to have fears and concerns. It’s okay to have doubts. ⠀

What’s not okay is to let them hold me captive. ⠀⠀
Something that they reminded me is that instead, I need to think about all the good things that God has done and give thanks. Now, this doesn’t mean these thoughts are bad. It just means I can’t let them constantly consume me. Even when it’s hard I need to still give praise to God. ⠀⠀⠀

Every day God is teaching me something.⠀⠀
Every day God is showing me a truth.⠀⠀
Every day God continues to be faithful.⠀⠀
Every day God shows His unconditional love for me.⠀⠀
Every day even through the pain of my circumstances God is good. ⠀

I’m learning and growing through these trials and hardships. I’m learning to be open and honest with others. I’m learning that I’m not alone and have amazing support and community of friends. ⠀
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I don’t know what you are facing today. I don’t need to know. God knows what you are going through. I’m here to remind you that I’m praying for you. I’m praying that you continue to grow. ⠀⠀
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Grow in your faith and that through your pain, hurt, and fears cling to the promise that God is with you every step of the way.

Circumstances Don’t Define You

Can I be honest with you for a minute? ⠀

It’s so easy to get caught up in your emotions. I’ve been struggling with doubt lately.

You see if you know me, my relationship with JESUS means everything to me. Lately, my circumstances have been testing my faith big time.

I feel like I’m less of a Christian because I struggle with doubting what I believe.⠀

52A20F32-E56A-4236-8562-617465948E9EGod, when is it my turn? ⠀
When will I see you answer my prayers? ⠀
When will I see you move in my life? ⠀
When will my circumstances change? ⠀
Are my prayers really making a difference? ⠀

The truth is I try to live the life that is pleasing to God yet I feel like I’m stuck. Health issues, singleness, watching others get answers to their prayers, and still nothing for me. ⠀

It’s so easy to get wrapped up in all of these thoughts that I start to doubt and wonder if they define who I am. ⠀

My circumstances suck and are hard right now but I just gotta keep trusting even if I don’t want to. I can’t give up. I know there’s purpose and a reason for all this pain but it’s so hard to see the reason right now. ⠀

I do believe God knows what He is doing. I met with my amazing mentor Casey yesterday for lunch and she reminded me that though it’s hard God does hear our prayers even when we don’t see the results right away. I’m so blessed to have her in my life to speak truth and love over me. ⠀

God’s timing last night at anthem was so needed. During worship, I lost it and was crying and felt moved to walk to the side of the room. There was Deanna who I just hugged while I let it go and cried. She prayed with me, encouraged me, and reminded me that I don’t have to go through this alone. I love her so much and thankful that God used her in my life. ⠀

Life may throw you curve balls at times, but when you go through the hard times surround yourself with people who will speak life into you, pray for you, encourage you, but most of all walk alongside you. ⠀


Don’t give up and even when you doubt keep trusting God. ⠀

I don’t know what the outcome of my circumstances may be. ⠀
I may never get the answer I want. ⠀
I may never get my turn. ⠀

I do know that even when it hurts and even when the pain is overwhelming God is good.

Mentoring Isn’t for the Faint of Heart

Mentoring is an important part of life. It’s something that I feel like everyone needs. The idea of someone consistently pouring into your life that you trust to give you advice, call you out when you need it and just be there for you is amazing. However, let me just tell you that being a mentor isn’t for the faint of heart. In fact, it’s probably one of the hardest things to do that will stretch you and test your limits.

Now before you get the wrong idea, I’m all for mentoring and in fact, I am mentoring someone right now. While I really am passionate about it and pouring myself into it I keep finding myself constantly being attacked by the enemy. You see, anytime that you are doing something for the good of God’s kingdom, Satan will attack you and hit you where it hurts the most.

Spiritual warfare is real and dangerous! That’s a whole other post I could write about but for the sake of time and not to confuse you I will get back to my point. 

You see, there’s a difference between having a mentor and having a best friend. If there’s one thing that I have learned over the last month of mentoring it is this. Let your best friend be your best friend and don’t expect them to mentor you. Let me explain myself a little bit more. You might be thinking well I trust my best friend to give me sound advice and she knows me better than anyone. While that may be true, the problem is she does know you better and therefore can’t be neutral in giving you advice.

Now, this doesn’t mean you should ignore your friend’s advice it just means you need to be careful and also have a mentor in your life as well that can help you with making the right decision.

A mentor is supposed to be someone who:

  • is a role model
  • someone who believes in you
  • encourages you
  • available in times of crisis
  • provides accountability
  • promotes spiritual growth
  • helps you achieve goals
  • provides trusted counsel

These are very important parts of what a mentor is. It’s not an easy road or journey but it’s definitely worth it. Helping someone grow in their relationship with Jesus is great and honestly the best feeling in the world. Just don’t get distracted by the enemy’s lies and attacks. Anytime you are doing something to further the kingdom of God the enemy is right there waiting to attack.

Mentoring is a gift but it’s not for the faint of heart.

Single as a Pringle…and ready to Mingle

Valentine’s Day can be a sensitive subject especially to the girl that is single. You see everyone hypes up the day to be all sorts of romantic with candy, love and spending time with that significant other. Well, that’s all fine and dandy if you are in a relationship, but for the girls who are single as a pringle, it’s just a sore reminder that at last, they are STILL single.

You see, I am 23 years old and never once been on a date. Never once been in a relationship, and never once really been in love. Now sure I’ve had crushes on guys who I thought were hot or had a great personality but nothing ever came out of it. I probably cried more over the fact that he didn’t like me or notice me or wasn’t into me when nothing ever happened.

Does that make me crazy? Crying over a boy that was never mine, to begin with? 

Although I’ve never been in a relationship this year especially has been super hard for me emotionally. You see, the world and society tell us that if we aren’t dating, married, or starting a family by the age of 21 then something must be wrong with you. I had it all planned out just like probably every other girl out there. I would be married by 21 and have at least 2 kids by now but turns out that I’m far from my plan. Here I am 23 still single and no sign of finding that special someone anytime soon.

It’s really hard when you see your friends in relationships and happily in love and you don’t have anyone. Don’t get me wrong, I am super happy for them but at times I ask when is it my turn? Why haven’t I found the one? Is something wrong with me?

That my friends, I have been pondering and asking myself and God for the last year or so but especially the last month. I really started to believe the lies of the enemy.

  • You’re not pretty enough.
  • You’re not skinny enough.
  • You’re not good enough.
  • You’re too shy.
  • You’re too conservative.
  • No one wants you.
  • No one loves you.

These are dangerous lies and can really mess with your head. I remember thinking that if I was her then maybe just maybe then I could get someone to find me attractive. It reminds me of the song Girl Crush by Little Big Town.

Yeah, ’cause maybe then
You’d want me just as much
I got a girl crush
I got a girl crush
Hate to admit it but
I got a heart rush
It ain’t slowing down

You see, the comparison is a deadly trap that can leave you believing that you aren’t good enough. I would be scared to talk to guys because I didn’t want them to get the wrong impression of me. I didn’t want them to think I was flirting with them or after them.

Part of me is a little old fashioned. You know, the guy asks the girl and if I were to talk to them first then they would think I was chasing them. As I’ve gotten older I’ve come to the realization that it’s not the case. It’s okay to talk to guys even if you don’t think you’ll ever date them. You can be friends with them. That’s how you get to know them. I have another blog post I’m gonna write later on guys and girls being friends but that’s for another time.

Back to the point, Grace. You are getting way off track. 

You see, being single as a pringle and ready to mingle is just a season of life. I’m not trying to diminish all the emotions, pain, confusion, and loneliness that comes with it. I’m right there with you. I’m living this season whether I want to or not.

Singleness can seem like a burden but it is actually a gift. 

If one more person tells me that they are jealous of my singleness I think I would scream. I may look like I have it all together and content in my singleness on the outside but on the inside, I’m just one hot mess express. However, there are a few things I want to leave you with today if you are single and struggling to navigate your way through this confusing, lonely season.

  1. Use this time to grow in your relationship with God.
  2. Don’t be afraid to mingle. 
  3. Embrace your single years. 
  4. Keep trusting and praying for your future husband.

I came across this quote a while ago and I would just like to leave you with it today.

UNTIL JESUS IS ENOUGH FOR YOU, NO PERSON OR THING WILL EVER BE. 

Be encouraged my friends, your singleness is a time for pressing in and pursuing your relationship with GOD and strengthen that. His plan for your life is so much better than our own we just have to keep trusting. It’s okay to be emotional, lonely, and confused during these single years just remember that God is right there with you holding your hand.

Until then I’m right there with you single as a pringle, and ready to mingle. 😀