Can I be honest with you for a minute? ⠀
It’s so easy to get caught up in your emotions. I’ve been struggling with doubt lately.
You see if you know me, my relationship with JESUS means everything to me. Lately, my circumstances have been testing my faith big time.
I feel like I’m less of a Christian because I struggle with doubting what I believe.⠀
God, when is it my turn? ⠀
When will I see you answer my prayers? ⠀
When will I see you move in my life? ⠀
When will my circumstances change? ⠀
Are my prayers really making a difference? ⠀
The truth is I try to live the life that is pleasing to God yet I feel like I’m stuck. Health issues, singleness, watching others get answers to their prayers, and still nothing for me. ⠀
It’s so easy to get wrapped up in all of these thoughts that I start to doubt and wonder if they define who I am. ⠀⠀
My circumstances suck and are hard right now but I just gotta keep trusting even if I don’t want to. I can’t give up. I know there’s purpose and a reason for all this pain but it’s so hard to see the reason right now. ⠀
I do believe God knows what He is doing. I met with my amazing mentor Casey yesterday for lunch and she reminded me that though it’s hard God does hear our prayers even when we don’t see the results right away. I’m so blessed to have her in my life to speak truth and love over me. ⠀
God’s timing last night at anthem was so needed. During worship, I lost it and was crying and felt moved to walk to the side of the room. There was Deanna who I just hugged while I let it go and cried. She prayed with me, encouraged me, and reminded me that I don’t have to go through this alone. I love her so much and thankful that God used her in my life. ⠀
Life may throw you curve balls at times, but when you go through the hard times surround yourself with people who will speak life into you, pray for you, encourage you, but most of all walk alongside you. ⠀
Don’t give up and even when you doubt keep trusting God. ⠀
I don’t know what the outcome of my circumstances may be. ⠀
I may never get the answer I want. ⠀
I may never get my turn. ⠀
I do know that even when it hurts and even when the pain is overwhelming God is good.