Anthem Worship Night

Hello February, when did you get here? Wasn’t it just January?

The past month has been rough due to getting sick with the flu twice as well as dealing with my chronic health issues. I’m hoping February will be better and I will be healthier. Right now I am still recovering but on the mend.


There’s so much that has been on my mind lately that I have been praying for. Our young adult group Anthem just finished up a 21 day fast and we celebrated with a Worship Night to end the month of January.

Can I just say the worship was soo powerful and The Holy Spirit was definitely moving last night? As I was worshiping and praying for God to meet me there in the moment because I was feeling empty and like I had no more to give. I needed to be renewed and refreshed.

One of my passions is prayer as you know if you’ve been following me for any amount of time. I’m on the prayer team at Anthem and during worship was a prayer partner. One of the best feelings in the world is being able to come alongside someone else and pray for them and with them.

It was then that something very special happened. As I was worshipping and praying a young woman came over to me. She said that she knew that I’m here to pray for others but she felt like God was telling her to come and pray for me. As she was praying over me and speaking into my life I knew it was from God. She was praying things that there was no way she would’ve known about. I mean I have seen her at Anthem before and we are friends on Facebook but never really have had a conversation. God used her last night and it was amazing. Now I have another friend.


I have other things I want to share with you about what God has been speaking to me but I’m gonna save that for another post. This post was meant to express how much Anthem Worship Night really meant to me.

Healing from The Pain of Loosing Someone

Two years ago I wrote this post but when I relaunched the blog it was lost in the transfer. I’d like to take a moment to share it with you again with some slight changes.

Everyone has lost a loved one sometime in their life. The pain never really goes away but does get easier as time goes on. I lost a very special person in my life. My grandma who I always called Nanna went to be with Jesus on January 17th 2016. Its been two years since she passed away but the fact of the matter is how did I accept this? How did I go back to normal days? When I will I stop crying? I’m sure if you are like me you have asked these same questions.

I would like to write today about how God and Jesus plays a big part in my healing process. It is so easy to turn away from God, place blame on yourself when something like this happens. You may think, why did they have to die? Why didn’t God answer my prayers? Where was He when I needed him? Trust me, everyone probably at one time or another have thought these questions I mentioned. I for one have thought it but thank God I know the truth. Don’t get me wrong, the pain was real, the anger was real, the hurt was real but so is God.

When I think of all the negative thoughts and questions I realize it was satan trying to destroy me and push me deeper into being depressed. In fact I went into a very deep depression.

I made it through the funeral and memorial service as best as I could but the next few weeks were the hardest. I couldn’t face the thought of jumping right back into reality. There were things that needed to get done and places I needed to go but I was having a really hard time doing them. Most days I just cried and wanted to stay in bed. My stomach was upset and I didn’t want to eat. All I wanted was for the pain to go away and have my grandma back.

One thing I struggled with was the fact that I didn’t want to be social at all. It just hurt too much. People asking me how I was and telling me they are sorry for my loss and that they were praying for me. I felt so fake. I would just tell them that I was fine or hanging in there. I even faked it at church. One Sunday I told a friend that I felt like a fake Christian. I acted like I was fine when inside I was torn apart. Sometimes I just wanted to scream at people saying “how do you think I am? my grandma just died.” I know they only meant well but that didn’t make me feel any better.

There were times that I was angry and overwhelmed. Times where I cried out to God saying how much more of this do I have to take. Why did she have to die? I never got to say to goodbye. I felt like my life was shattered and broken in a million tiny pieces. I felt weak and realized that I wasn’t strong.

Usually I am the strong one and there for everyone else and now I needed them to be there for me. I was blessed by having very close friends that I could tell how I really felt. They listened to me and helped me a lot.

Then I remembered that God never lets me go. Even though tough times come He will never leave me and I am not alone.

Even though the first few months have been especially hard for me. I am so thankful I had a great support team of friends and family. Without them and Jesus I would be a hot mess. Even though this hurts and I feel part of me died with her I know she is in Heaven happy with Jesus and in no more pain. One thing is because of Jesus I know I will see Nanna again someday.

One song that I held on to the most during that difficult dark time in my life was “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again” by Danny Gokey. It has a great message for times like this when you lose a loved one. I encourage you to go take a listen. You can find the song on YouTube or Spotify.

The part of the lyrics that really stuck out to me were…

”Let every heartbreak and every scar, be a picture that reminds you who has carried you this far. ‘Cause love sees farther than you ever could. In this moment Heaven’s working everything for your good.”

Then of course I love the chorus of the song as well.

So fast forward two years later and I am happy to say that I am in a place where I got back to my life. It doesn’t mean the paint and hurt isn’t there because that will never go away. What it does mean is that God has been healing my broken heart and reminding me that He is faithful and He will never let me go.

I encourage whoever is reading this that no matter what storm you have to go through never loose sight of Jesus. Without Him you can never feel whole again.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Devotional – Write Your Story

Today’s post is going to be something a little different than normal. I thought it would be a nice change to post a devotional I wrote last year. Music plays a big part in my life as well as studying scripture so why not combine both? That’s how the idea came about for this devotional. I hope you like it. If you do be sure to leave me a comment letting me know if you’d like to see more.

So without further ado let’s dive into today’s devo. 🙂

Scripture: 

“I tell you the truth, wherever the Good News is preached throughout the world. This woman’s deed will be remembered.” Matthew 26:13 (NLT)

Reading:

Write Your Story was written by Francesca Battistelli and also inspired today’s devotion. Throughout your devotion today I will be sharing some lyrics from the song that have to do with what I am writing about. You know the saying when you are a writer you have the job of writing the story anyway you want. It’s your story because your the author. It’s the same way with God. He is the author of your life. He already wrote your story. You see when you live life and choose to put Him first it is the best decision you will ever make.

Author of my hope, maker of the stars

Let me be Your work of art 

Won’t You write Your story on my heart

I love the verse in Matthew that you previously read. It reminds us that when we tell others about God and Jesus and what He has done for us we will be remembered. One day we are all going to die. Death is just a part of life but if we know Jesus and asked Him to come into our hearts we will live forever with Him.

I want my history, to be Your legacy, go ahead and show this world, 

What You’ve done in me, and when the music fades, I want my life to say, 

G Notes – I’ve thought about my life a lot lately especially during some really hard times. Am I living a life that let’s others know who He is? When I die how will I be remembered? Do I have a legacy to leave? Every one of these questions flood my mind. I want to let God write my story. I want God to use me so that when I die my life would be remembered as someone whose story was written by the author of the universe. 

I let You write Your story, write Your story

Write Your story, write Your story, I’m an empty page, I’m an open book

Write Your story on my heart, come on and make Your mark

As you grow and continue to let God use your story I pray that others with be impacted by your commitment and love for God. Don’t forget to share His love with others. Let Him tell your story like He intended to all along.

Word for the Day:

Legacy – something that is a result of events in the past. As described by Merriam-Webster dictionary. I think this is the word that should be the main focus for today. I encourage you to write the word and meaning on an index card. Remember a legacy is important. We all want to be remembered for something. Let’s be remembered for sharing Christ with others.

Reflect: 

How will people remember you?

What do you want your legacy to be?

Will people know God through you?

Are you letting God write your story?

Prayer:

Father, I pray right now for each and every one that’s reading this. I pray that they live their lives for you. Everyone that they come in contact with I pray they will see you. We want to be remembered for loving you and living our life for you. May our legacy be history of us serving and loving you. In Jesus name, Amen!

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤