God Chose Me

“We know, dear brothers and sisters, that God loves you and has chosen you to be his own people.” 1 Thessalonians 1:4 (NLT)

I’ve struggled with self worth for a while as well as depression. It’s taken me a while to even get to this point in my life where I can openly share about it but I believe God has a message that will encourage you from what He is teaching me.

I’ve always wondered if I was good enough, qualified enough, or smart enough to blog or work in ministry. I’m not the most popular person and terrified of being a failure. The last few weeks especially have been rough because the devil has really been hitting me hard. In all honestly the lies he’s been feeding me I started to believe.

I started to believe that maybe I wasn’t suppose to do ministry or do blogging. I was feeling overwhelmed and worn out. These lies were running through my head and I was feeling like a total failure.

I should’ve been praying harder but instead I was sinking deeper and deeper in these lies. 

Most of January my days were going smoothly and everything was getting done. My goals that I set were right on track. Then the flu hit and everything started to fall apart. I got behind on my daily Bible reading, devotions, and other projects. It frustrated me because it felt like I wasn’t making this my priority.

You see that’s how satan works. He feeds us lies and throw life situations into our path to get our attention and focus on them and not on God. 

Recently I watched the livestream of the If Gathering 2018 online. There were so many amazing speakers but one that really stuck out to me was Rebekah Lyons. I heard her speak last year at If Gathering and she quickly became one of my favorites. This year while she was speaking she said a quote that got me really thinking hard about my life and caused me to reevaluate my spiritual heart.

God didn’t pick the wrong girl for ministry. Satan chose the wrong one to mess with. 

Wow! How profound is this quote? It really hit me hard. All these questions started running through my mind. It honestly gave me a headache.

All these lies and questions the devil were throwing at me made me realize something really important. Am I strong enough to defeat the devil? In short no I am not but God is. He chose me for this calling and He will see me through. I want to be the kind of girl that knows she is chosen, knows her worth, and makes the devil not want to mess with her.

I want to be the girl that when I wake up and start my day whether it be through my blog, social media, or ministry that the devil is afraid of me.

When I am pursuing the calling God has laid on my life I can rest assured that I was chosen. God picked me for this exact project and I just have to trust He will see it through.

So I encourage you today that you remember you are chosen by God. It may seem at times that you feel overwhelmed or under qualified but remember these are lies. God has a plan and purpose for your life. If He called you to do this, He will see you through it. No matter what hold tight to the promise that you are a precious daughter of the King. You are chosen.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Fasting and Writing Prayers for Future Husband Devotional

Wow I can’t believe we are already into February! Can I just take a few minutes and be completely honest with you all? I am finding that being real, honest, and vulnerable is the best thing to do. The past month has been a whirlwind of crazy life.

I started the year off with putting Jesus first in the mornings and I have to say it was the best decision I have made. Meeting with Him before the world has really been making my days go better.

One of my goals for 2018 is to get more intentional about prayer and in order to do that I started fasting on January 8th for forty days. I still have two weeks to go but it has been changing my life. When I first started to think about fasting honestly I was kinda terrified and nervous. Usually fasting is from food and I knew that would be hard for me but it wasn’t what God was calling me to fast from.

I chose to fast from Snap Chat, Pinterest, and all music that wasn’t Christian. Has it been hard? Yes! Is it worth it? Totally! You see these things were something I spent most of my time on and I felt that they were the right things to fast from to help me spend my focus and time on Jesus.

As much as I love spending time on Pinterest, constantly snap chatting my bestie, or listening to country and pop music. I love Jesus more!

My relationship with Him means more to me then anything else in this world. If I’m not willing to give things up for Jesus then what is it worth?

Through out my praying and fasting God laid on my heart to start writing 14 day devotionals and the first one is complete.

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I’d like to introduce you all to Prayers for my Future Husband. It’s designed to help you write out prayers as you are in this season of waiting and singleness. You can purchase it on ETSY as a digital download and print it out at home.

I pray that this study/prayer journal you will find that God has your love story in His timing and hands. All we have to do is wait.

So I encourage you to share this with all your single friends. Let’s start praying now for the future and for the husband that God has picked out for you. You may not have met him yet but during this time of singleness it’s not too early to be praying for him.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Healing from The Pain of Loosing Someone

Two years ago I wrote this post but when I relaunched the blog it was lost in the transfer. I’d like to take a moment to share it with you again with some slight changes.

Everyone has lost a loved one sometime in their life. The pain never really goes away but does get easier as time goes on. I lost a very special person in my life. My grandma who I always called Nanna went to be with Jesus on January 17th 2016. Its been two years since she passed away but the fact of the matter is how did I accept this? How did I go back to normal days? When I will I stop crying? I’m sure if you are like me you have asked these same questions.

I would like to write today about how God and Jesus plays a big part in my healing process. It is so easy to turn away from God, place blame on yourself when something like this happens. You may think, why did they have to die? Why didn’t God answer my prayers? Where was He when I needed him? Trust me, everyone probably at one time or another have thought these questions I mentioned. I for one have thought it but thank God I know the truth. Don’t get me wrong, the pain was real, the anger was real, the hurt was real but so is God.

When I think of all the negative thoughts and questions I realize it was satan trying to destroy me and push me deeper into being depressed. In fact I went into a very deep depression.

I made it through the funeral and memorial service as best as I could but the next few weeks were the hardest. I couldn’t face the thought of jumping right back into reality. There were things that needed to get done and places I needed to go but I was having a really hard time doing them. Most days I just cried and wanted to stay in bed. My stomach was upset and I didn’t want to eat. All I wanted was for the pain to go away and have my grandma back.

One thing I struggled with was the fact that I didn’t want to be social at all. It just hurt too much. People asking me how I was and telling me they are sorry for my loss and that they were praying for me. I felt so fake. I would just tell them that I was fine or hanging in there. I even faked it at church. One Sunday I told a friend that I felt like a fake Christian. I acted like I was fine when inside I was torn apart. Sometimes I just wanted to scream at people saying “how do you think I am? my grandma just died.” I know they only meant well but that didn’t make me feel any better.

There were times that I was angry and overwhelmed. Times where I cried out to God saying how much more of this do I have to take. Why did she have to die? I never got to say to goodbye. I felt like my life was shattered and broken in a million tiny pieces. I felt weak and realized that I wasn’t strong.

Usually I am the strong one and there for everyone else and now I needed them to be there for me. I was blessed by having very close friends that I could tell how I really felt. They listened to me and helped me a lot.

Then I remembered that God never lets me go. Even though tough times come He will never leave me and I am not alone.

Even though the first few months have been especially hard for me. I am so thankful I had a great support team of friends and family. Without them and Jesus I would be a hot mess. Even though this hurts and I feel part of me died with her I know she is in Heaven happy with Jesus and in no more pain. One thing is because of Jesus I know I will see Nanna again someday.

One song that I held on to the most during that difficult dark time in my life was “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again” by Danny Gokey. It has a great message for times like this when you lose a loved one. I encourage you to go take a listen. You can find the song on YouTube or Spotify.

The part of the lyrics that really stuck out to me were…

”Let every heartbreak and every scar, be a picture that reminds you who has carried you this far. ‘Cause love sees farther than you ever could. In this moment Heaven’s working everything for your good.”

Then of course I love the chorus of the song as well.

So fast forward two years later and I am happy to say that I am in a place where I got back to my life. It doesn’t mean the paint and hurt isn’t there because that will never go away. What it does mean is that God has been healing my broken heart and reminding me that He is faithful and He will never let me go.

I encourage whoever is reading this that no matter what storm you have to go through never loose sight of Jesus. Without Him you can never feel whole again.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Word of the Year

As we are closing out the year it’s come to the time where I reflect on my word of the year and choose my new word. This year was my first to do it and I have to admit that throughout this year my word became more and more relevant.

This year I chose the word Deeper! I wanted to go deeper in my relationship with Jesus and grow deeper in my faith. All of that came true. Meredith Andrews has a song called “Deeper”. These are my favorite lyrics in the whole song.

Every valley made me lift my eyes up
Every burden only made me stronger
Every sorrow only made Your joy go
Deeper and deeper, deeper, and deeper

Over the last year I have had more then my share of being broken and spent some time in the valleys. Even though I had trials and heartache it definitely made me go deeper and deeper.

Thrown down but not defeated
I’m worn out but not giving up
I’ve hit ground but even at rock bottom
I’m just getting started, yea, I’m just getting started

This song was pretty much my theme for this year. Even though I have been thrown down and hit rock bottom I’m not giving up. I’m just getting started. There is so much more I want to do. Which brings me to my word for 2018.

As I have been praying a lot about what I wanted 2018 to be God revealed to me that I was made for more then to just survive. I was made to thrive. “Thrive” is my word for the new year. My prayer for the new year is to make a difference and share what God has taught me and continues to teach me with others. This year I have been doing a lot of just surviving, keeping my head just above water so I don’t down. The new year I want to thrive. I know that I was made for so much more and that anything is possible with God on my side.

We know we were made for so much more
Than ordinary lives
It’s time for us to more than just survive
We were made to thrive

Thrive by Casting Crowns will be my new theme song. It has such a great message and really sums up what I see for the future.

Have you chosen a word for the new year yet? If not it’s not too late to join in. I want to leave you with a little encouragement as you choose a word. Remember when choosing to think about all the areas in your life. Think about what you want to work on, your weaknesses and strengths. Pray asking God for guidance, ask Him to open your eyes, ears, and heart to what He is leading you toward.

I would love to hear what word you have chosen and why. Leave it in the comments below or feel free to reach out to me on all social media platforms.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!!! 

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I pray you all had a very blessed day filled with family, friends and much love as we all celebrated the birth of the Messiah Jesus Christ. This season is my favorite for many reasons but I’d like to share with you what’s been on my heart throughout advent and Christmas this year.

Christmas is a time to gather with family and friends and exchange gifts. Traditions are always fun and nice but the real reason for Christmas is Jesus. One song that I have been listening to a lot this season was Emmanuel (Hallowed Manger Ground) by Chris Tomlin. The song sums up my feeling for why I celebrate Christmas.

A baby came and changed the world. God left heaven to come to this broken world in human form as a baby. He was born in a manger to Mary and Joseph. He didn’t stay a baby forever. That baby grew up and become a man. The man died on the cross for our sins.

One of my favorite quotes that I don’t know who said it was this:
“Without a manger there would be no cross.”
How true is that? If Jesus wouldn’t have been born in the manger He never would have grown up to die on the cross for our sins. Think about that! Jesus is the best gift of all time. This Christmas season let’s not get so caught up in the traditions and fun that we forget Jesus.
Take a few minutes to listen to this song. I pray you all had a very Merry Christmas!
Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

The Heart of Christmas

Every year since the movie came out it has been a tradition to watch The Heart Of Christmas movie. I cannot recommend it enough. If you have never seen it I encourage you to watch it. Right now it is currently streaming on Netflix. It’s one of the best heartfelt ones I have ever seen and every time I watch it I’m usually crying by the time it’s over.

As I watch the movie the whole message is about cherishing the ones you love before it’s too late. Tell them you love them. Don’t live in the past or the future but live in the present and enjoy every moment.

What a beautiful reminder for us as Christmas is approaching? The heart of Christmas is something we don’t want to miss. Holidays are the times when we see family and friends the most. There’s the big gatherings and gift exchanges. It’s a time for love and memories being made.

Christmas for me is always hard. This year will be the second one without my grandma here. Celebrating the holidays are different when you loose a loved one. There will always be a piece of you missing. The pain never goes aways but with time it does get easier. It’s so easy to get caught up in all the emotions and little things. The first year was super hard for me. Traditions of things my Grandma and I would do each year didn’t happen. There would be no more making cookies together or listening to Christmas music and singing together. Nothing I wouldn’t give to tell my grandma one more time just how much I loved her. I would give her a great big hug and share her just how much she meant to me.

This Christmas I encourage you to stop what you are doing. Take a minute out of the busyness of the season and make time for those that you love. Tell them you love them. Cherish each moment you have with them. Focus on today, not yesterday and not tomorrow.

Don’t miss this moment! The heart of Christmas is about Jesus. Take a few minutes and listen to this song by Matthew West. Let’s not miss the opportunity the heart of Christmas.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

 

Christmas Interruptions

When we think about Christmas we think paint this picture of everything perfect like out of a movie. The fire in the fireplace burning bright, the house decorated and cozy, snow outside and spending time with family and friends. We tend to think that everyone is happy and act like there’s not a care in the world. We build this picture of peace and tranquility during the holidays.

That isn’t life though, something interrupts us that brings us back to reality. Someone comes yelling and slamming doors placing blame on one another for something. We get a phone call that something bad has happened.

Maybe our heart gets broken.

A relationship or friendship ended.

A loved one has passed away.

Someone betrayed us that hurt.

Our perfect Christmas dreams we pictured and painted always has something that will interrupts and change our plans. Sometimes we wish that we could just stay in our little world a little longer but that isn’t reality. Something always comes up to cramp our style. I know just how you feel. There are more times then I can count that I wish life could be picture perfect. I don’t like change and lately have had more then my share of interruptions and bad things happen.

What I am here to tell you is this. Nothing surprises God. All these interruptions aren’t surprises to him. Nothing takes God by surprise and we tend to mistake the bad things as Him loosing control. But this is not true. However we wish that things like this would never happen but truth is that they will.

Jesus said that we’d have trouble but also promised us that He will be there in the midst of it all.

John 16:33 “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”

No matter where we are in life whether it is on the path we want or the path we don’t want be encouraged right now. God is with us. He will always be by our side. The brokenness we feel can be made into something beautiful by God.

I love the verse in Romans that tells us God works everything for the good of those who love Him who have been called according to His purpose.

The Message version of Romans 8:28 says “That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.” This version explains this excellently. Every little detail in our lives of love for God is working into something good. His ways are always better then we can imagine.

So right now take heart and listen to what I am saying. Press through and trust God. He is the only one who will never let you down. He loves you so much! That is what Christmas is about. This season instead of worrying or stressing out over the broken pieces just remember the reason we celebrate Christmas. It’s because of Jesus. He loves us so much and He will never leave our side.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

It’s a Time to Give Thanks

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

As I sat in church last night for our traditional Thanksgiving Eve service and communion I have so much to grateful this year. It’s been a really rough year emotionally but I am so thankful that Jesus never left me once. He has always been faithful and help me get through all my brokenness and I have so much to be thankful for.

Our lives should be overflowing with gratitude because of what God has done. God gave His son who gave the ultimate sacrifice by being willing to die on the cross for my sins so that I can live with Him for all eternity. This just blows my mind away because I am not worthy of this gift nor do I deserve it but I am extremely grateful. Because I asked Him to forgive me of my sins and come live in my heart I will get to see all my loved ones who have gone before me again someday in Heaven. I am truly thankful and grateful for that promise.

We read Colossians 2:6-7 and I love The Message version which says: “My counsel for you is simple and straightforward: Just go ahead with what you’ve been given. You received Christ Jesus, the Master; now live Him. You’re deeply rooted in him. You’re well constructed upon him. You know your way around the faith. Now do what you’ve been taught. School’s out; quit studying the subject and start living it! And let your living spill over into thanksgiving.” 

Today I want to leave you with four points to remember about gratitude.

  1. People who overflow with gratitude are positive. 
  2. People who overflow with gratitude are peacemakers. 
  3. People who overflow with gratitude are generous. 
  4. People who overflow with gratitude are affirming. 

We are abundantly blessed. When you live with everything loose in your hands it’s easier to let it go when God tells you to give it away. When you see a need meet it. Be the hands and feet of Jesus.

One thing that our Pastor talked about was having an attitude of gratitude. I’m sure there is someone in your life that has invested their time in your life and without them you wouldn’t be who you are today. He encouraged us to take time to write that person a thank you note. It may just make their day. I challenge you today to do just that. Take ten minutes or so to write a note to the person you are most thankful and grateful for. I know I am going to do that. If it’s more then one or two people that’s okay too. My list is fairly long so tonight I’ll be writing several notes.

Even though I will be writing notes later I just want to give a shoutout to a few people that have impacted my life and I couldn’t imagine doing life without them.

I’m thankful for my parents. They love me and help guide me through life. The give me a place to live, clothes to wear, food to eat, and everything that I need to survive. They have never given up one even when I have. Most of all they support me and believe in me. No matter what I know that I can go to them for advice and they will listen to me. They have been there from day one and without them in my life guiding me I wouldn’t be who I am today. I am forever grateful that God allowed and choose them to be my parents. 

I’m thankful for my sisters Amber and Summer. Over the last couple years we have grown closer. When I was going through a tough time you never left my side. You are Godly young women who always know how to encourage me and pray for me. I love how you make me laugh, smile, and I can be completely myself with them. I am comfortable to share my heart. I know if I have a problem I can always count on them. When I need to talk I know you are always a phone call or text away and I love that we are always there for each other no matter what. So thankful for the fact that you keep me focused and grounded in the Word. One thing for sure is that we all love God and continue to grow in our faith together. Yes you have surpassed being my best friends. You are family and I couldn’t live my life without you. I can’t wait to see what is ahead of us and how God will use us to bring more people to know Him. 

I am extremely grateful and thankful for my bestie Elyse! She is the absolute best. I love that God allowed us to be friends. She is extremely awesome and fun to be around. Though we are separated in miles and don’t get to see each other often I love how we make time for our weekly phone calls. You’re sense of humor is something I adore whether it is a text, snap, or tagging me in an insanely weird meme. You get me and know me better than myself. You share my love of music and I can talk to you about anything and you never judge. Our conversations brighten my day so much. Thank you for the endless conversations of laughter and love. You are pretty awesome and I couldn’t imagine my life without you. I am thankful for you!!! 

My prayer for you today is that you have a very blessed Thanksgiving that is overflowing with gratitude.

Blessings,
Grace Mae ❤

Holding Nothing Back

Welcome Back Friends~

You might have noticed I haven’t posted since September but to be completely honest life has really gotten me down. I have struggled with depression before and the last several weeks it’s taken me for a ride. I am however happy to say that over these weeks God has been speaking to me and wants me to share my life with you. This is going to get personal and real with you. It’s scary sharing these things with the world. I’m being very vulnerable right now. I’m absolutely terrified of how this is going to be read but through this struggle I pray it will encourage and tough the life of just one person.

This post is going to be a little different from my other ones but I hope you stick around and get some encouragement out of it. Most of you know that music is a huge part of my life and often times God uses a song to speak to me. The song I am about to share with you is one He used to help change my life. I encourage you to take a listen to it before continuing to read. It will help you understand better where I am coming from.

The song is called Holding Nothing Back by: Ryan Stevenson.

So without further adieu here it goes.

The beginning of this song talks about a hurting heart. Sometimes we put up barriers, but behind those barriers we are hurting inside. Our heart has been thrown around and beaten up. We feel like we’re falling apart. There’s times when everything that could go wrong does or at least we think so. We tend to play victim and feel targeted. We feel like we have to dodge so many things that it just wears us out both emotionally and physically. Every minute of the day feels so hard and sometimes we don’t understand why. We keep asking the question “WHY is this so hard?”

I’m holding nothing back from you.

Doesn’t really matter what I lose.

Got a heart that’s open. I’m broken and I want you to know.

Jesus, I don’t want anything coming in between you and me.

Jesus, it doesn’t matter what I have to go through.

I’m holding nothing back, nothing back from you.

Over time and especially the last several weeks, I found that I don’t want to hold back from God. I don’t care what I have to loose whether it be friends, family, money, a job, etc… my heart is open. We are all broken! We all make mistakes. Our lives are far from perfect. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. Everyone is going through something. It doesn’t matter that we are broken. We can show the world that we want them to know this. No matter what we don’t want anything to get between Jesus and us. No matter what life throws our way we won’t hold back. Holding back isn’t an option. We want Jesus to know He is our priority.

I’ve got a list that goes on and on.

It’s overflowing with memories of everything that I’ve been doing wrong

And I’ll be the first to say, I’ve chased after so many foolish things looking for a

way to kill the pain.

We as humans tend to keep lists of every single thing that has gone wrong in our life. We tend to go over and over in our minds the memories. No it’s not wrong. You are completely normal if you think these thoughts. I would be worried if you didn’t have these thoughts. This is what makes us need to rely more on God. I’m not ashamed to admit this. There have been so many things that I thought would help with the pain and the hurt. Things I would watch or listen to even though I knew deep down inside that Jesus was the only thing that would help me with my hurt and pain. Right now I want to encourage you that if you have been searching for someone or something to “kill” the pain and haven’t found it yet then you haven’t found Jesus. He’s the only one that can take your hurt, pain, and grief and heal you.

I try to do the right things.

Why am I struggling day to day with these same old things?

Whatever’s taking your place, I’m getting out of the way.

I’m getting out of the way.

It’s time for us to take control. Let’s step out of the His way and let Him take over. Whatever we are struggling with, whatever we are using to take His place, let’s stand up and say enough. We are done letting the enemy take control. I know I am. I want Jesus and nothing will hold me back.

Today I challenge you and remind you that no pain, hurt, lies, insecurities, or whatever else will hold you back from God.

Welcome and New Beginnings

Welcome to One Girl One Life One God!

I’m super excited and happy that you have decided to stop by and checkout my new adventure. There’s so much that I can’t wait to share with you but before I do let’s take a little time to learn about my vision and purpose of this blog. Maybe you already know me or maybe this is your first time finding me. Either way I hope you decide to stick around. 😉

If anyone would’ve told me a year ago that I would be writing here for you my reaction would’ve been “seriously? Me, a writer?” I never saw myself writing but God did. He has called me to do this. Am I good at this? Do I know what I am doing? No not really but I am learning. Am I going to continue to do this? Absolutely! If there’s one thing that I have learned it’s that when God calls you to something you do. Be sure to check out The Real Me page to learn more about me.

As I have been praying long and hard over this blog and praying for each one of you, my readers God has laid the foundation of what I want this to become. During Bible time I came upon Romans 1:12. Ever since the first time I have read that verse I knew this is what I wanted this blog to be founded on.

“When we get together, I want to encourage you in your faith, but I also want to be encouraged by yours.”

This verse means so much to me and it has become the life verse for One Girl One Life One God. Even though my main goal or mission is to encourage you in your faith I think it’s important I am encouraged by your faith.

Every week I hope that you will come back. I plan to post once a week to unsure top quality. Some weeks it may be more but for the most part just once a week. You, my readers are very important to me and I want to make sure that every post is top quality and thought through. Be sure to check out Grace Mae’s Musings Newsletter too and sign up. I will be sending out a weekly email filled with encouragement, resources, special offers, and more.

This is going to be a learning process and I pray that you will stick around. I can’t do any of this without prayers, encouragement, and God’s strength. Today I’d like to end this post with a prayer for you if you don’t mind.

Father, I just want to give you thanks right now. I am beyond excited to be launching this blog and I want to dedicate it over to you right now. Everything that I post, write, or share I want it to bring glory to you and only you. Without you this wouldn’t be possible. You have laid this on my heart and has given me this opportunity to share and encourage others in their faith. Please guide me and give me the words you want me to share. I just want to be used by you. Now I pray for every single person reading this right now. Help them to open their hearts and minds to what they are reading. Keep them close to you because they are loved. You love them and care for them. I thank you that we can come to you in prayer no matter where or when. You are always faithful and I can’t wait to see what all you have in store for this blog and for me. We love you so much Jesus. Amen! 

Well, thanks for checking me out and don’t hesitate to leave a comment or send me a message. I’d love to hear from you and get to know you as well. Comment below with where you are reading this from! Just state your name and state. You can also find all my contact information on the Contact page! I’m all over social media.

Blessings until next time,

Grace Mae ❤