Birthday Reflection

There’s a lot that I would like to say today but I’m going to do my best to keep it from turning into a novel. Lol 😂 ⠀

I’d like to take some time to reflect back over this year since tomorrow is my birthday and I’ll be turning 24.⠀

I can’t say that this year wasn’t hard. ⠀
I can’t say that I was always happy.⠀
I can’t say that nothing went wrong.⠀
I can’t say I had perfect health. ⠀
I can’t say that my life was perfect.⠀
I can’t say that I didn’t make mistakes. ⠀
I can’t say that it was the best year of my life.⠀
I can’t say that I didn’t let people down. ⠀

You see just like you, I struggle with hard things. Just because I’m focused on this ministry/blog that God has called me to doesn’t mean I’m perfect and have it all together. In fact, I’m far from having it all together. Most days I’m a hot mess no makeup and hair a mess. I might not be perfect but I can be authentic.

What I can say is this!⠀

I can say that my faith grew stronger.⠀
I can say that God never failed me.⠀
I can say that even through hard times I made it.⠀
I can say that my health issues don’t define me.⠀
I can say that God loves me.⠀
I can say that I’m a child of the King.⠀
I can say that I made new friends. ⠀
I can say that I’ll be alright with God’s help.⠀
I can say Jesus is my everything! ⠀

This year brought me closer to God. I made new friends for which I am so thankful and blessed. I’ve continued to grow the friendship with my current friends and I’m looking forward to what 24 will bring me.

If there is one thing that I learned again this year it’s that God uses super-hard seasons to bring you closer to Him. He uses people in your life that will come alongside you and walk this journey with you. This year has brought a lot of depression and me asking God why so many times.

However, I’m so incredibly blessed to have a wonderful group of supportive friends that will pray for me, love me, help me grow in Christ and most of all just be my friend. I have amazing parents who are always there for me no matter what.⠀

So today I chose to look back and spend my last day as 23 clinging to all the promises and truths God has for my life. I’m excited and scared at the same time to see what 24 will bring me. 

TRUST…Even in the Hard!

Deep breath, it’s all going to be okay. I just gotta keep trusting. At least that is what I keep telling myself every day. This past weekend I attended my local IF GATHERING women conference. The whole theme was on trusting God. Can I just say that the messages of the speakers just hit hard with me and convicted me? Well, that was definitely the case.

Trusting God is something that I say all the time but am I REALLY trusting Him?  

It’s not always easy to trust God especially when circumstances are hard and you feel like you are drowning but it is always worth it to trust God. My own life has been filled with more hard, dark times than one 23 years old should have to deal with and still I haven’t lost my faith. Okay I lied, I’ve questioned it several times but haven’t completely lost it.

The words “am I trusting God?” really hit me hard and it made me stop and think. Wow, what a stab to the heart. I was convicted. You see I say that I trust God because I really want to but the question is am I willingly placing my trust in Him?

It’s not easy to trust God at times especially when circumstances seem to be shaking my faith to the core. Even when life hits me so hard I want to trust God but my own human side of me doesn’t understand why. You see when we are faced with hard, dark times and seasons of hard circumstances it’s so easy to ask God the question of where are you? I know from personal experience that I’ve asked this question more times than I’d like to admit.

One quote that stuck out to me was from Shantara McBride: 

Don’t ask God to agree with me but instead trust Him because He is asking you over and over again to trust Him. 

PROVERBS 3:5-6 tells us: Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight.

You see, you have to know what is true in God but also what is not true. Galatians talks about how we can take the truth and alter it slightly and it becomes false. Sometimes the truth makes us uncomfortable. When it does, remember that you have to reject that the approval of people is greater than the authority of God.

TRUST in God! Get to know Him and all the truth He has to offer. Spend time with Him. Investing time spent with God is not easy but always worth it. You just have to believe that trusting God and His pursuit of us is worth it.

The bottom line to this post or story is this. I’m not perfect. I struggle with trusting God just as much as the person reading this. The only difference is that even though I do struggle and openly admit it I do know one thing.

WE SERVE A BIG GOD!!!! Even though the hardest times may hit and you don’t understand know that your feelings are valid. It’s okay to doubt and question. Just don’t stay that way. You have a choice and I pray you will choose to trust God. I know I am.

Read the Bible in a Year or Not?

One of the goals that I set for myself last year in 2018 was to read the Bible through in a year. I was pretty consistent and kept up with it until about March. Life happened and while that is still no excuse I fell behind and just got discouraged so I gave up. Fast forward to 2019 and I set the same goal again. This year I was determined not to get behind and really keep up with it. I even bought one of the chronological journaling/coloring Bibles to help me stay focused. Well, I managed to keep up for the first month despite getting sick with the flu twice. While it was good, I kept feeling like God was telling me to stop.

Now first off I’d like to say that I’m not out to offend or bash you if you decide to read the Bible through in a year. I think it’s great. Many of my friends do and I support that 100%. However, take into consideration the why behind reading it.

Are you reading the Bible just so you can say you did it and cross it off your list or are you reading the Bible to learn and open your heart to what God has to say and learn? 

My word for the year is INTENTIONAL! I want to have all the right intentions for why I read my Bible. I started feeling like I had to read my Bible just so I can cross it off my list. It was like checking off the box for the day. I wasn’t fully digging deeper and thinking about what I was reading. It’s kinda like just going through the motions because it was the right thing to do. That’s when I heard God speak to me.


Grace, I want you to stop trying to read your Bible through in a year. I want you to start reading it so I can speak and teach you. Stop and pause, write down what you are learning and all the truths I have for you that are in my Word. 


WOW, thank you for bringing this to my attention God! I want to read my Bible because I want to know you more and continue to grow not because I want to check it off my list each day.

If you are wanting to grow and really read your Bible to learn I am going to share with you a few practical tips of what I am doing in hopes that it will encourage you. While each of us will take away different truths from the Bible and what we read here are what I think will help you.

  1. Start with Prayer- Prayer is important and by starting with it we are asking God to open our heart, soul, and mind to what He has for us and how we can learn and grow from what we are reading.
  2. Journal – Be sure you have a journal or some sort of notebook or paper handy. As a writer I love words and by writing it helps me process. Write down questions, verses, or anything that comes to mind while you are reading and studying.
  3. Worship Music – I love having worship music playing in the background. It just helps set the mood. Music speaks to my soul and it just calms me down. Right now I am loving the new album Follow You Anywhere by Passion Music. It’s my jam and pretty much is playing nonstop.
  4. Coffee – Okay you really don’t need coffee but it definitely helps.

While I want to be able to give you 1-2-3 steps and tell you that if you do that it will be easy but I can’t. We are all on our own unique journey of faith. I would love to hear your thoughts about this topic. Feel free to comment or send me a message.

Anthem Worship Night

Hello February, when did you get here? Wasn’t it just January?

The past month has been rough due to getting sick with the flu twice as well as dealing with my chronic health issues. I’m hoping February will be better and I will be healthier. Right now I am still recovering but on the mend.


There’s so much that has been on my mind lately that I have been praying for. Our young adult group Anthem just finished up a 21 day fast and we celebrated with a Worship Night to end the month of January.

Can I just say the worship was soo powerful and The Holy Spirit was definitely moving last night? As I was worshiping and praying for God to meet me there in the moment because I was feeling empty and like I had no more to give. I needed to be renewed and refreshed.

One of my passions is prayer as you know if you’ve been following me for any amount of time. I’m on the prayer team at Anthem and during worship was a prayer partner. One of the best feelings in the world is being able to come alongside someone else and pray for them and with them.

It was then that something very special happened. As I was worshipping and praying a young woman came over to me. She said that she knew that I’m here to pray for others but she felt like God was telling her to come and pray for me. As she was praying over me and speaking into my life I knew it was from God. She was praying things that there was no way she would’ve known about. I mean I have seen her at Anthem before and we are friends on Facebook but never really have had a conversation. God used her last night and it was amazing. Now I have another friend.


I have other things I want to share with you about what God has been speaking to me but I’m gonna save that for another post. This post was meant to express how much Anthem Worship Night really meant to me.

Passion Conference 2019

66122804I was blessed to be able to attend Passion Conference 2019 with my church at the beginning of the month.

It was not only my first time going to Passion but it was also my first church trip ever. There’s so much that happened over the three days that I am still trying to process.

God was definitely moving in my life as well as others there. It was a sold out venue. It was amazing to see so many others my age worshipping and praising God. It was so refreshing.

If I had to summarize the three-day conference in one word the word I would choose is: POWERFUL! Between the worship and the speakers, I can personally say my life was changed. My perspective on faith was challenged and strengthened all at once. I’m not quite sure how to explain all the emotions that were running through my mind.

Over the course of the three days, we heard from speakers like Louie Giglio, Chad Veech, Gary Haugen, Matt Chandler, and Christine Caine.

There are so many great messages and takeaways from the different speakers that we’d be here all day so I am just going to share the highlights and my favorites.


Louie Giglio opened up the conference the first night. He shared about the love and affection of a father.

“Jesus was forsaken by His own father so you will know that you will never be forsaken by yours.” 

Three points that were made that stuck with me were these.

  1. Primary relationship with God is like a relationship of a father and child.
  2. There is an enemy who has a plan for you. The plan is to shatter fatherhood and get rid of it.
  3. The gospel gives us a beautiful hope of a brand new birth.

You are no longer a slave to the fear of earning a fathers affection. You have His affection!


Chad Veach brought a message called: THE PLACE I CRAVE 

“Hope is an architect, but faith is the builder.”

Hebrews 11: 6 tells us: And without faith, it is impossible to please God because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him. 

Let’s raise our faith and not put the power of God into a box! It is impossible for God to lie. We have this unshakable hope. Be encouraged that Jesus is praying for you when you feel like no one is because He is the high priest. 

“Everything I need is in His Presence.”

Psalms 42:2 – my soul longs to be with you JESUS. 

  1. Whatever you run to, you trust. We run to God because we love Him and trusts Him.
  2. Hide in His faithfulness. The way God works is backward from us. When we hide in His faithfulness we can watch what He can do.
  3. Everything I need is in His presence. God gives us strength. We come in one way but leave changed. We find new strength. God may pull you in but He will send you out. 
  4. He’s trying to anchor me in His love. We must drop our anchors in Him.  

Next, we heard from Gary Haugen. He spoke on being a light in the darkness.

John 8:12 tells us: Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” 

You are the light of the world! We know from scripture that Jesus is the light of the world. However, He turns around and tells us that we are the light of the world. 

“This is God’s plan for bringing glory to Himself in the world; it’s to raise up sons and daughters of light who shows the world what His goodness looks like.”

God builds bonfires from little bits of light. Our job is to let Him take our little light use it for His glory.


Matt Chandler really spoke to me. His message was very thought-provoking and really made me think about things.

He used John 4:1-42 as the Scripture reference. It talked about how Jesus had to pass through Samaria. This was the first I AM statement which I found really interesting.

You can’t fight the devil in the dark. He will knock you out. You need to fight him in the light. 

“To be 99% known is to be 1% unknown…”

Wow! That statement right there really struck me hard. You see fear wants us to believe that hiding is better than being seen and being known. God wants all of you: not just the good version of you, not just the “presentable” version of you. He wants the real you. He is interested in the whole you, all of you, every single part.

Psalms 139:1 tells us: You have examined my heart and know everything about me. 

How you understand God matters? Jesus will not be dodged.


Last but certainly not least we heard from Christine Caine. She was another one of my favorite speakers from the conference. I love how open and vulnerable she is.

Jesus marveled…. thaumazo = Greek word. Marveled is only mentioned twice in the New Testament. 

When you get familiar and start taking things for granted we lose all the wonder and amazement of Jesus. It was the unbeliefs of the people that kept JESUS from doing miracles. 

Would we have faith the would make Jesus marvel? 

“You can’t impress God but you can amaze Him with your faith. I want a faith that makes JESUS marvel.”

If we stopped trying to amaze each other and start amazing God then He would start doing amazing things. When you realize that He is everything then it takes the pressure off of you! 

Our calling is not our career path. 

Faith is predicated on trust. If we don’t trust God we won’t follow Him. We have to trust that God will work all things together for good and for His glory. God never said you weren’t going to have pain. He did say that He was going to be there right with you through it. 

Somewhere spiritually speaking you came in here in the back of an ambulance. 

The issue isn’t are we going to die but are we going to live the life Jesus put us on the earth to live?


WOW! Her message was powerful and gave me a lot to think about for sure. Overall, this conference was amazing and really filled me up Spiritually. God is so good and He is always faithful. As I continue to meditate on everything I learned, it just makes me feel blessed that I have a relationship with Jesus. A relationship that continues to grow as I open up my heart, soul and mind to everything He has to teach and offer me.