Valentine's Day can be a sensitive subject especially to the girl that is single. You see everyone hypes up the day to be all sorts of romantic with candy, love and spending time with that significant other. Well, that's all fine and dandy if you are in a relationship but for the girls who are single as a pringle, it's just a sore reminder that at last, they are still single. You see, I am 23 years old and never once has been on a date. Never once been in a relationship, and never once really been in love. Now sure I've had crushes on guys who I thought were hot or had a great personality but nothing ever came of it. I probably cried more over the fact that he didn't like me or notice me or wasn't into me when nothing ever happened. Does that make me crazy? Crying over a boy that was never mine, to begin with?
Deep breath, it's all going to be okay. I just gotta keep trusting. At least that is what I keep telling myself every day. This past weekend I attended my local IF GATHERING women conference. The whole theme was on trusting God. Can I just say that the messages of the speakers just hit hard with me and convicted me? Well, that was definitely the case. Trusting God is something that I say all the time but am I REALLY trusting Him? It's not always easy to trust God especially when circumstances are hard and you feel like you are drowning but it is always worth it to trust God. My own life has been filled with more hard, dark times than one 23 years old should have to deal with and still I haven't lost my faith. Okay I lied, I've questioned it several times but haven't completely lost it.
One of the goals that I set for myself last year in 2018 was to read the Bible through in a year. I was pretty consistent and kept up with it until about March. Life happened and while that is still no excuse I fell behind and just got discouraged so I gave up. Fast forward to 2019 and I set the same goal again. This year I was determined not to get behind and really keep up with it. I even bought one of the chronological journaling/coloring Bibles to help me stay focused. Well, I managed to keep up for the first month despite getting sick with the flu twice. While it was good, I kept feeling like God was telling me to stop.
Hello February, when did you get here? Wasn't it just January? The past month has been rough due to getting sick with the flu twice as well as dealing with my chronic health issues. I'm hoping February will be better and I will be healthier. Right now I am still recovering but on the mend. There's so much that has been on my mind lately that I have been praying for. Our young adult group Anthem just finished up a 21 day fast and we celebrated with a Worship Night to end the month of January.
May I never forget on my best day, that I still need GOD as desperately as I did on my worst!⠀ ⠀ When I came across this quote I knew that I wanted it to be a reminder. You see, we tend to search and pursue God when we are having a bad day and then when things get better we tend to push it aside. My friends that’s not good. ⠀ We need to be pursuing and searching after GOD every day in any circumstance. ⠀