TRUST…Even in the Hard!

Deep breath, it’s all going to be okay. I just gotta keep trusting. At least that is what I keep telling myself every day. This past weekend I attended my local IF GATHERING women conference. The whole theme was on trusting God. Can I just say that the messages of the speakers just hit hard with me and convicted me? Well, that was definitely the case.

Trusting God is something that I say all the time but am I REALLY trusting Him?  

It’s not always easy to trust God especially when circumstances are hard and you feel like you are drowning but it is always worth it to trust God. My own life has been filled with more hard, dark times than one 23 years old should have to deal with and still I haven’t lost my faith. Okay I lied, I’ve questioned it several times but haven’t completely lost it.

The words “am I trusting God?” really hit me hard and it made me stop and think. Wow, what a stab to the heart. I was convicted. You see I say that I trust God because I really want to but the question is am I willingly placing my trust in Him?

It’s not easy to trust God at times especially when circumstances seem to be shaking my faith to the core. Even when life hits me so hard I want to trust God but my own human side of me doesn’t understand why. You see when we are faced with hard, dark times and seasons of hard circumstances it’s so easy to ask God the question of where are you? I know from personal experience that I’ve asked this question more times than I’d like to admit.

One quote that stuck out to me was from Shantara McBride: 

Don’t ask God to agree with me but instead trust Him because He is asking you over and over again to trust Him. 

PROVERBS 3:5-6 tells us: Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; in all your ways know him, and he will make your paths straight.

You see, you have to know what is true in God but also what is not true. Galatians talks about how we can take the truth and alter it slightly and it becomes false. Sometimes the truth makes us uncomfortable. When it does, remember that you have to reject that the approval of people is greater than the authority of God.

TRUST in God! Get to know Him and all the truth He has to offer. Spend time with Him. Investing time spent with God is not easy but always worth it. You just have to believe that trusting God and His pursuit of us is worth it.

The bottom line to this post or story is this. I’m not perfect. I struggle with trusting God just as much as the person reading this. The only difference is that even though I do struggle and openly admit it I do know one thing.

WE SERVE A BIG GOD!!!! Even though the hardest times may hit and you don’t understand know that your feelings are valid. It’s okay to doubt and question. Just don’t stay that way. You have a choice and I pray you will choose to trust God. I know I am.

God Chose Me

“We know, dear brothers and sisters, that God loves you and has chosen you to be his own people.” 1 Thessalonians 1:4 (NLT)

I’ve struggled with self worth for a while as well as depression. It’s taken me a while to even get to this point in my life where I can openly share about it but I believe God has a message that will encourage you from what He is teaching me.

I’ve always wondered if I was good enough, qualified enough, or smart enough to blog or work in ministry. I’m not the most popular person and terrified of being a failure. The last few weeks especially have been rough because the devil has really been hitting me hard. In all honestly the lies he’s been feeding me I started to believe.

I started to believe that maybe I wasn’t suppose to do ministry or do blogging. I was feeling overwhelmed and worn out. These lies were running through my head and I was feeling like a total failure.

I should’ve been praying harder but instead I was sinking deeper and deeper in these lies. 

Most of January my days were going smoothly and everything was getting done. My goals that I set were right on track. Then the flu hit and everything started to fall apart. I got behind on my daily Bible reading, devotions, and other projects. It frustrated me because it felt like I wasn’t making this my priority.

You see that’s how satan works. He feeds us lies and throw life situations into our path to get our attention and focus on them and not on God. 

Recently I watched the livestream of the If Gathering 2018 online. There were so many amazing speakers but one that really stuck out to me was Rebekah Lyons. I heard her speak last year at If Gathering and she quickly became one of my favorites. This year while she was speaking she said a quote that got me really thinking hard about my life and caused me to reevaluate my spiritual heart.

God didn’t pick the wrong girl for ministry. Satan chose the wrong one to mess with. 

Wow! How profound is this quote? It really hit me hard. All these questions started running through my mind. It honestly gave me a headache.

All these lies and questions the devil were throwing at me made me realize something really important. Am I strong enough to defeat the devil? In short no I am not but God is. He chose me for this calling and He will see me through. I want to be the kind of girl that knows she is chosen, knows her worth, and makes the devil not want to mess with her.

I want to be the girl that when I wake up and start my day whether it be through my blog, social media, or ministry that the devil is afraid of me.

When I am pursuing the calling God has laid on my life I can rest assured that I was chosen. God picked me for this exact project and I just have to trust He will see it through.

So I encourage you today that you remember you are chosen by God. It may seem at times that you feel overwhelmed or under qualified but remember these are lies. God has a plan and purpose for your life. If He called you to do this, He will see you through it. No matter what hold tight to the promise that you are a precious daughter of the King. You are chosen.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤