Wow, I can't believe it's March already! You've probably been wondering where I've been. It's been two weeks since I last posted but a lot has been going on in those two weeks for sure. If you've learned anything about me from reading this blog, following me on social media, or know me personally you will know I love pouring into others and encouraging them. Well, the truth is if I am completely honest I sorta have been ignoring myself. It is so much easier to take care of others than yourself. The thing is I am in a season where I feel like I am empty or dried up. I keep pouring out and out but in reality, I need to be filled up and poured into myself. Yes, I have a mentor. Yes, I go to church. Yes, I have a prayer life. Yes, I spend time in worship. Yes, I have friends that encourage me. But even with that, I have been feeling disconnected. I want to really dig into my Bible and grow closer to God.
Mentoring is an important part of life. It's something that I feel like everyone needs. The idea of someone consistently pouring into your life that you trust to give you advice, call you out when you need it and just be there for you is amazing. However, let me just tell you that being a mentor … Continue reading Mentoring Isn’t for the Faint of Heart
Valentine's Day can be a sensitive subject especially to the girl that is single. You see everyone hypes up the day to be all sorts of romantic with candy, love and spending time with that significant other. Well, that's all fine and dandy if you are in a relationship but for the girls who are single as a pringle, it's just a sore reminder that at last, they are still single. You see, I am 23 years old and never once has been on a date. Never once been in a relationship, and never once really been in love. Now sure I've had crushes on guys who I thought were hot or had a great personality but nothing ever came of it. I probably cried more over the fact that he didn't like me or notice me or wasn't into me when nothing ever happened. Does that make me crazy? Crying over a boy that was never mine, to begin with?
Deep breath, it's all going to be okay. I just gotta keep trusting. At least that is what I keep telling myself every day. This past weekend I attended my local IF GATHERING women conference. The whole theme was on trusting God. Can I just say that the messages of the speakers just hit hard with me and convicted me? Well, that was definitely the case. Trusting God is something that I say all the time but am I REALLY trusting Him? It's not always easy to trust God especially when circumstances are hard and you feel like you are drowning but it is always worth it to trust God. My own life has been filled with more hard, dark times than one 23 years old should have to deal with and still I haven't lost my faith. Okay I lied, I've questioned it several times but haven't completely lost it.
One of the goals that I set for myself last year in 2018 was to read the Bible through in a year. I was pretty consistent and kept up with it until about March. Life happened and while that is still no excuse I fell behind and just got discouraged so I gave up. Fast forward to 2019 and I set the same goal again. This year I was determined not to get behind and really keep up with it. I even bought one of the chronological journaling/coloring Bibles to help me stay focused. Well, I managed to keep up for the first month despite getting sick with the flu twice. While it was good, I kept feeling like God was telling me to stop.