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What Ifs, Even Ifs, It’s Okay, & Life

Wow! I can’t believe that the last time I posted was on Memorial Day. This summer is flying by. I really hadn’t intended to take this long of a break. I just wanted you to know that I hadn’t forgotten about you. 

Truth is life has been crazy and rough. I know, you are probably thinking “here we go again”. Yes, I admit that it has been my go-to phrase lately, but I’m not looking for attention or wanting you to feel sorry for me.

If I am honest, sharing this part of my journey and story with you makes me feel very vulnerable. It’s scary sharing personal parts of yourself with others. Truth is God has been working and speaking into my life and I just had to share it with you. 

Many of you know that I struggle with chronic health issues. It’s a part of my life that I share about from time to time. Living with these health issues has taught me a lot. There are so many stages that I’ve gone through. There are so many questions that I have asked God over and over again. I’ve been sad, depressed, hurt, and angry. Questions I’ve demanded an answer that never came left me even more confused. 

It’s taken a lot of time but recently God revealed to me something that changed my whole perspective.

You see there’s a lot of uncertainty in life. More so when you throw chronic health issues on top of that. One thing that I struggle with is the fact that because of my health issues it affects my hormones. I’m on hormone replacement because my body doesn’t make them on my own. If you know anything about hormones then you would know that it can cause all kinds of emotions. Even more so for women. 

I came across this quote. “what if” = fear “even if” = faith ⠀

Wow, what a powerful reminder! That quote right there hit me hard. I don’t know about you but for me, there has been a lot of “what if’s” lately in my life. ⠀

I’ve been in this hard season searching and asking God all my “what if” questions.

What if I never get married?⠀
What if I never have kids? ⠀
Wha if my health is never restored? ⠀
What if I never get a job? ⠀
What if my dreams never come true? ⠀

It occurred to me that all of these questions were my fears of the future and fears of the unknown. The enemy was using these against me. Instead, I need to think that “even if” this happens I still will have faith. ⠀

Even if my dreams don’t come through. ⠀
Even if my health is never restored.⠀
Even if I never get married.⠀
Even if I never have kids. ⠀
Even if my dreams never come true.⠀
Even if I never get a job. ⠀

I will still have faith and trust God. I will still praise and worship Him because He is still good. So I want to encourage you today to start taking those what if’s and turning them into even if’s. Take heart friends, Jesus loves you and He is still good.

If you’ve been following me for a while or know me in person you will know that I am super passionate about being there for everyone else. I have learned that faking being okay is easier than letting people know how you really are feeling.

Well, my friends, God has been slowing revealing to me that sometimes it’s okay not to be okay. Don’t take this the wrong way. I’m not talking about complaining or always dumping your problems on others. What I am talking about is sometimes being the strong one who’s always there for others sometimes need people to be there for them. Just don’t let it consume you to the point of it defining your purpose or life.

I don’t like complaining or dumping all my problems, fears, desires and life on others. I’d much rather be the one who’s helping others through this life. Call it my stubborn nature lol 😛 you know the type, independent not wanting to admit you need help for fear of getting judged or hurt. That has happened way too many times in my life. More times than I’d like to count.

It wasn’t until recently in the last couple months or so that I started slowly letting people in. God was working on my heart. He was revealing to me that I needed my friends and Him to help walk me through this hard season of life.

Then yesterday at church God confirmed to me that it’s okay not to be okay all the time. During worship as I was singing and praying about all these questions, I went up to the altar to pray. I wasn’t looking for someone to pray with me I was just looking for some time with Jesus.

As I prayed and cried a very sweet friend came to pray with me. It really touched my heart. Her prayer over me just confirmed what God was telling me. He was speaking to me about being more vulnerable and willing to admit I need prayer. Admit that it’s okay to ask others to come alongside you when you are feeling weak and broken down.

It goes back to that quote I shared. The fears of the what-ifs that turn into the faith of even-ifs. They all tie in together. When you take those fears to God and share them with your friends together you can find the faith to endure.

Even if my health isn’t restored I will still praise my God. He is the center of my life. He is still good.

MY WHAT IFS DON’T DEFINE WHO I AM IN HIM!!!!!!

There will be days when I am not okay but you know what? It’s okay!

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

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Happy Memorial Day

Spring_Summer IGAs we celebrate Memorial Day I wanted to take some time to reflect. ⠀

It’s an emotional day as we remember all those who serve or have served in the military. We remember the brave men and women who gave their lives so we can be free. ⠀

I just want to thank everyone that serves and fights for my freedom. To them and their families, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your service. ⠀

Just like we thank our armed forces we also need to thank Jesus as well. He was willing to die for us. Without His sacrifice, we’d all be lost. Jesus made the ultimate sacrifice and for that, I am so thankful.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

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National Day of Prayer Reflection

2018 NATIONAL DAY OF PRAYER! 🙏🏻

This past Thursday was the day to observed with others a time to pray. Even though it’s a recognized day that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t be praying every day.

• I believe that prayer is an important part of life.

• I believe that we should pray no matter what.

• I believe that no prayers are too much for God.

• I believe God wants to hear from you.

As I reflected and thought about National Day of Prayer this year, it means more to me than before. From the beginning of the year, I’ve said that I want to have a more intentional prayer life.

It’s important to me to have meaningful and deep conversations with God. 

God laid on my heart that He wants to hear from me.

– He wants to have a heart to heart talk with me.

– He wants to know my struggles.

– He wants to cry with me.

– He wants to laugh with me.

– He wants to help me.

Basically, He just wants all of me.

As I spent the day praying and today praying as well. 🙏🏻 I want to pray for you.

I wholeheartedly believe that it’s an honor and privilege to pray for my followers, friends, family, church, government, law enforcement officers and every single person I can. 

I encourage you to pray today as well. No matter what your political views are put them aside. Everyone needs prayer no matter what. Even if you disagree with someone’s opinions or beliefs that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t pray for them.

🙏🏻 • Pray for President Trump. 🙏🏻 • Pray for the nation.

🙏🏻 • Pray for all those in authority. 🙏🏻 • Pray for the leaders.

🙏🏻 • Pray for this broken world. 🙏🏻 • Pray for unity and peace.

“Make every effort to keep yourselves united in the Spirit, binding yourselves together with peace.” ♥️ Ephesians‬ ‭4:3‬ ‭(NLT‬‬)

So here’s my question for you today.  How may I pray for you today?

Feel free to comment, send me an email, or reach out on any of my social media accounts. Let me come alongside you and pray for you.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

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Seasons, Life, Taking a Break…

Can I just take a moment and get personal and honest with you?

Right now I’m in a weird season of my life. Struggling with all sort of things.

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It’s so hard watching others lives keep moving on when I feel like I’m stuck in a rut. Countless time after time I see friends graduating high school, college, dating, marriage, kiddos, mission trips, working that great job, etc…

It starts to depress me because it makes me realize just how I’m nowhere near close to any of this.

Instead of dwelling on these things I’m learning to try and embrace the present and be who God wants me to be right where I am at and trust that He will bring all my dreams and heart desires to past.

The last couple weeks have been rough. Honestly, I’ve felt like giving up.

I just wanted to sit in my room and cry. I was messaging a friend and she reminded me to cast all my cares on God because He cares for me.

That was a reminder that I needed to hear at just the right time. As soon as I started praying and crying out to Jesus I started to feel a little better.

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After a lot of praying and much thought, I need to take a little break from blogging. It wasn’t an easy decision for me to make. I love communicating with each and every one of you every week. It’s just I have been feeling a little burned out on top of dealing with flare-ups with my health.

I have said since day one that this year I would only bring you quality content over quantity. It’s time for me to take a little time away and spend it refreshing my soul, tending my own faith so that God can use me to encourage you.

Even though I’m taking a break from the blog it doesn’t mean that I’m disappearing altogether. You can still find me over on my Instagram posting as well as on My Facebook Page.

Please also sign up for my free weekly email devotionals. I will be continuing them. I believe that God has called me to share the devos each week with you.

This will also sign you up to receive updates from me as I have been planning and working on some exciting things as well as to notify you when I come back.

I pray blessings on each and every one of you. I hope you understand why I am taking a break and pray that you will still follow me on social media. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to me by email or direct message if you have a prayer request or just want to say hi.

Blessings until next time, Grace Mae ❤

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Unseen: Servanthood – Mary or Martha?

 

“Do you want to stand out? Then step down. Be a servant. If you puff yourself up, you’ll get the wind knocked out of you. But if you’re content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty.” Matthew 23:11-12 (MSG) 


These verses really hit me hard this week. Being content as being yourself is one of the hardest struggles I think most of us face.

The way we are wired is to be seen. When we are given jobs or tasks and do them well we want everyone to know that we did them. It’s just normal for us to want to be recognized for our work and jobs that we have done well.

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You see no one wants to be underappreciated or overlooked. We all want to get the glamorous or noticed jobs. I know for me personally, I’ve struggled with getting stuck with the messy or not so great tasks. I’ve probably complained or grumbled more than I’d like to admit.

I love how in Matthew it talks about not letting your ego and pride get in the way. If you let it consume you and you start acting like you are better than anybody else it will come back to kick you in the butt. It will just set you up for disappointment.

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I’m always reminded of the story of Mary and Martha. You see in that story there were two sisters who both knew what being a servant and serving meant but had two very different personalities.

Let’s read Luke 10:38-42 (MSG):

As they continued their travel, Jesus entered a village. A woman by the name of Martha welcomed him and made him feel quite at home. She had a sister, Mary, who sat before the Master, hanging on every word he said. But Martha was pulled away by all she had to do in the kitchen. Later, she stepped in, interrupting them. “Master, don’t you care that my sister has abandoned the kitchen to me? Tell her to lend me a hand.”

The Master said, “Martha, dear Martha, you’re fussing far too much and getting yourself worked up over nothing. One thing only is essential, and Mary has chosen it—it’s the main course, and won’t be taken from her.” The Master said, “Martha, dear Martha, you’re fussing far too much and getting yourself worked up over nothing. One thing only is essential, and Mary has chosen it—it’s the main course, and won’t be taken from her.”

The lesson we can learn from this passage of Scripture is that only one thing mattered to Jesus and Mary chose it. You see Mary wanted to listen to every word Jesus spoke. She wanted to know Him more. She was more worried about learning from Jesus than to impress Him. However, Martha, on the other hand, was so worried about every little detail being perfect. She was too worried about making sure Jesus’ visit was the best that she was so caught up in the details she forgot to make time to actually sit and listen to His words.

You see we could learn a lesson from both of them. Both Mary and Martha could’ve compromised somewhat. Mary could’ve been a little more helpful while Martha could’ve slowed down and listened to Jesus more.

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We need to remember this: We hunger for significance to be seen and understood and loved, to be and live marvelous-because we are made not only to know God but also known to Him.

 

“Therefore we do not give up. Even though our outer person is being destroyed, our inner person is being renewed day by day.”

2 Corinthians 4:16 (CSB)

You see when we choose to be a servant and have a heart that is willing to be celebrated even in the unseen moments and learn to embrace it then God will bless you and your life will count for far more than you ever could imagine.

I want to encourage you as you read this. Let’s go back to the beginning Scripture passage that I opened this post with. We need to be content with the life we are living now instead of craving something we don’t have. I love this quote by Sara and that it was a great way to end this post.

“Our human eyes can betray the truth of the story we are living.” Sara Hagerty

 


Discussion Questions: Answer these in the comments, over on social media, share them with a friend, or just keep them to yourself.

  1. What does being a servant mean to you?
  2. Who are you most like? Mary or Martha?
  3. What are some reasons why it may hinder you in the way of your pursuit of that “better thing”?

  4. In what areas of servanthood have you found yourself craving the look of another or acknowledgment of what you are doing?


Be sure to engage in the conversation over on Instagram as well as join our Facebook group. I look forward to hearing and engaging with you all.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤