Reality Check, Fasting, and God

 


If God brought you to this, He will bring you through it. 


Wow, I can’t believe it’s already March! Where are the days going? Can you believe we are only one month away from Easter? I feel like the days are getting shorter the older I get. There is so much on my to-do list and not enough time to get everything done.

One thing that I’ve been thinking about a lot lately is prayer. As you have read in previous posts, one of my passions is prayer and I wanted to get more intentional about it this year.

Earlier in January I did a 40 days prayer and fast. During the time I spent away from Pinterest, snapchat and all secular music were one of the best decisions I could’ve made. Instead, I used that time to dig deeper into The Word and prayer. God really spoke to me during those 40 days and I’d like to think it changed my perspective on a lot of things.

One thing that I’ve been praying about lately and I’m going to get really honest with you is I want this blog and my ministry to grow and reach more people. I want to become well known and make a difference in other’s lives and change their lives for the better. My focus has been mostly on making sure everything was “Instagram”, “social media” quality. I wanted things to be like others that I follow. Ultimately, it came down to I want what they have and been trying so hard to compete with them.

This has been my prayer for a while now and while it’s not technically wrong to want to grow my following, make sure the content is that of the utmost highest quality, and being consistent in posting, God really spoke to me and gave me sorta a reality check. Okay, it was more like a slap in the face.

As I was praying and reading my Bible one day God told me this.


Grace, I know you have a heart for me. I know you want to live your life and do this ministry for me. What you need to know is this. You are thinking and focusing on the right things for the wrong reasons. You are so worried about it being the right thing. You are focusing on what others are doing and comparing yourself to them. Grace, you need to slow down and breathe. Stop trying so hard and beating yourself up when things go wrong. Stop and listen to me right now. Just be yourself and everything will be fine. I will help you get everything done you need too. I have chosen and called you to ministry and because of that, I will make sure you are equipped and prepared for this task. Just trust me and my timing.


WOW!!! Can I go crawl under the covers and hide??? Ouch! Thanks, Jesus, you couldn’t have said that nicer?

Here’s the thing my friends, I struggle so hard with comparison and wanting everything to be perfect when in reality everything can’t be perfect. We weren’t created that way. You see I stress out a lot about what others think of me and yes I know, I’m working on not caring but that’s easier said than done.

So what if I don’t have thousands of followers or million views on my blog? So what if I don’t post every single day on Instagram? So what if I miss a week in a blog post? So what if it’s not perfect? So what if I don’t become famous? So what if I don’t change hundreds of lives?

The important lesson that God taught me is if I do all this blogging, social media for his glory and to share with others what he is teaching me instead of doing it to be boastful or prideful everything will work out in his timing.

I just need to slow down and relax. I need to trust him. If even one person was blessed, encouraged, or changed because of my writing or posts then it’s all worth it.

I’m just like you are. Just because I am a blogger or have a ministry doesn’t make me any better or special. I am just one girl, who chose to use this opportunity to share with you my journey of faith and life. One thing for sure is I’m not perfect and sometimes I make mistakes. Some days I’m just a plain hot mess and other days I have it all together.

If you take just one thing from this post today I hope it is just this. Be willing to let God use you right where you are in his timing.

Everything is better when you trust Jesus to lead you.

Since then my perspective has changed and my focus has shifted. When I go to post or write an article I think about this. It’s totally okay to be real sometimes. It’s okay to be vulnerable. People want to relate to you and they can only do that if you are willing to let them in.

To be completely honest, this wasn’t the post I had intended to write this week but God just took over and here we are. Being totally transparent and vulnerable with you is one of the scariest and hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I hope you got something out of this.

I leave you with this question. What is one thing that you compare yourself to others? How can we pray for you overcome that and believe that God will help you?

The quote I started this post out with I want to end with it as well.

If God brought you to this, He will bring you through it.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

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