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Healing from The Pain of Loosing Someone

Two years ago I wrote this post but when I relaunched the blog it was lost in the transfer. I’d like to take a moment to share it with you again with some slight changes.

Everyone has lost a loved one sometime in their life. The pain never really goes away but does get easier as time goes on. I lost a very special person in my life. My grandma who I always called Nanna went to be with Jesus on January 17th 2016. Its been two years since she passed away but the fact of the matter is how did I accept this? How did I go back to normal days? When I will I stop crying? I’m sure if you are like me you have asked these same questions.

I would like to write today about how God and Jesus plays a big part in my healing process. It is so easy to turn away from God, place blame on yourself when something like this happens. You may think, why did they have to die? Why didn’t God answer my prayers? Where was He when I needed him? Trust me, everyone probably at one time or another have thought these questions I mentioned. I for one have thought it but thank God I know the truth. Don’t get me wrong, the pain was real, the anger was real, the hurt was real but so is God.

When I think of all the negative thoughts and questions I realize it was satan trying to destroy me and push me deeper into being depressed. In fact I went into a very deep depression.

I made it through the funeral and memorial service as best as I could but the next few weeks were the hardest. I couldn’t face the thought of jumping right back into reality. There were things that needed to get done and places I needed to go but I was having a really hard time doing them. Most days I just cried and wanted to stay in bed. My stomach was upset and I didn’t want to eat. All I wanted was for the pain to go away and have my grandma back.

One thing I struggled with was the fact that I didn’t want to be social at all. It just hurt too much. People asking me how I was and telling me they are sorry for my loss and that they were praying for me. I felt so fake. I would just tell them that I was fine or hanging in there. I even faked it at church. One Sunday I told a friend that I felt like a fake Christian. I acted like I was fine when inside I was torn apart. Sometimes I just wanted to scream at people saying “how do you think I am? my grandma just died.” I know they only meant well but that didn’t make me feel any better.

There were times that I was angry and overwhelmed. Times where I cried out to God saying how much more of this do I have to take. Why did she have to die? I never got to say to goodbye. I felt like my life was shattered and broken in a million tiny pieces. I felt weak and realized that I wasn’t strong.

Usually I am the strong one and there for everyone else and now I needed them to be there for me. I was blessed by having very close friends that I could tell how I really felt. They listened to me and helped me a lot.

Then I remembered that God never lets me go. Even though tough times come He will never leave me and I am not alone.

Even though the first few months have been especially hard for me. I am so thankful I had a great support team of friends and family. Without them and Jesus I would be a hot mess. Even though this hurts and I feel part of me died with her I know she is in Heaven happy with Jesus and in no more pain. One thing is because of Jesus I know I will see Nanna again someday.

One song that I held on to the most during that difficult dark time in my life was “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again” by Danny Gokey. It has a great message for times like this when you lose a loved one. I encourage you to go take a listen. You can find the song on YouTube or Spotify.

The part of the lyrics that really stuck out to me were…

”Let every heartbreak and every scar, be a picture that reminds you who has carried you this far. ‘Cause love sees farther than you ever could. In this moment Heaven’s working everything for your good.”

Then of course I love the chorus of the song as well.

So fast forward two years later and I am happy to say that I am in a place where I got back to my life. It doesn’t mean the paint and hurt isn’t there because that will never go away. What it does mean is that God has been healing my broken heart and reminding me that He is faithful and He will never let me go.

I encourage whoever is reading this that no matter what storm you have to go through never loose sight of Jesus. Without Him you can never feel whole again.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Posted in Bible Study, Devotions, Uncategorized

Devotional – Write Your Story

Today’s post is going to be something a little different than normal. I thought it would be a nice change to post a devotional I wrote last year. Music plays a big part in my life as well as studying scripture so why not combine both? That’s how the idea came about for this devotional. I hope you like it. If you do be sure to leave me a comment letting me know if you’d like to see more.

So without further ado let’s dive into today’s devo. 🙂

Scripture: 

“I tell you the truth, wherever the Good News is preached throughout the world. This woman’s deed will be remembered.” Matthew 26:13 (NLT)

Reading:

Write Your Story was written by Francesca Battistelli and also inspired today’s devotion. Throughout your devotion today I will be sharing some lyrics from the song that have to do with what I am writing about. You know the saying when you are a writer you have the job of writing the story anyway you want. It’s your story because your the author. It’s the same way with God. He is the author of your life. He already wrote your story. You see when you live life and choose to put Him first it is the best decision you will ever make.

Author of my hope, maker of the stars

Let me be Your work of art 

Won’t You write Your story on my heart

I love the verse in Matthew that you previously read. It reminds us that when we tell others about God and Jesus and what He has done for us we will be remembered. One day we are all going to die. Death is just a part of life but if we know Jesus and asked Him to come into our hearts we will live forever with Him.

I want my history, to be Your legacy, go ahead and show this world, 

What You’ve done in me, and when the music fades, I want my life to say, 

G Notes – I’ve thought about my life a lot lately especially during some really hard times. Am I living a life that let’s others know who He is? When I die how will I be remembered? Do I have a legacy to leave? Every one of these questions flood my mind. I want to let God write my story. I want God to use me so that when I die my life would be remembered as someone whose story was written by the author of the universe. 

I let You write Your story, write Your story

Write Your story, write Your story, I’m an empty page, I’m an open book

Write Your story on my heart, come on and make Your mark

As you grow and continue to let God use your story I pray that others with be impacted by your commitment and love for God. Don’t forget to share His love with others. Let Him tell your story like He intended to all along.

Word for the Day:

Legacy – something that is a result of events in the past. As described by Merriam-Webster dictionary. I think this is the word that should be the main focus for today. I encourage you to write the word and meaning on an index card. Remember a legacy is important. We all want to be remembered for something. Let’s be remembered for sharing Christ with others.

Reflect: 

How will people remember you?

What do you want your legacy to be?

Will people know God through you?

Are you letting God write your story?

Prayer:

Father, I pray right now for each and every one that’s reading this. I pray that they live their lives for you. Everyone that they come in contact with I pray they will see you. We want to be remembered for loving you and living our life for you. May our legacy be history of us serving and loving you. In Jesus name, Amen!

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

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In the Morning, Give Me Jesus

One of my goals for 2018 is to spend more time in prayer and in spending time with Jesus. Last week I talked about what My Jesus Time looked like and this week I want to talk about something near and dear to my heart. Last week I decided to fast. Now I’m not talking about fasting from food.

God has laid on my heart that I need to be more intentional about prayer and spending time with Him this year. 

So for 40 days I will be fasting and praying. I gave up snapchat, Pinterest, and all music that isn’t Christian. As much as I love my country music and some pop I love Jesus more. I’m one week into it and I’ve already been seeing God work and speak to me. There are some big decisions that I need to make and some projects that I am looking for guidance and direction on. I’ve been using the time that I would usually spend on social media or listening to music now in prayer.

“Let me hear of your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to you.” Psalms 143:8 (NLT) 

Another major change I made is a challenge I saw on Instagram by The Well Watered Woman blog called Word before World. The concept behind it is to spend time in the Bible before you check social media. It’s been interesting getting use to this.

In a world that thrives on social media because it is the first thing we tend to gravitate towards in the morning. We wake up, grab our phones and start looking through all those notifications when we should be spending time with Jesus. I am just as guilty as the next person when it comes to this. Checking my phone to see how many likes and comments I have on Instagram and Facebook that I need to respond to or worrying about how many followers I got overnight. These things are great but they distract me from spending time with Jesus.

My relationship with Jesus is something that I take very seriously. It’s something that means everything to me and I am willing to give up things to make sure it happens. 

Since I made this change, my mornings have been different. First thing I do when I grab my phone is read my devotionals on You Version app before I check my social media accounts. I will say that there were times when I accidentally opened Facebook or Instagram before I realized what I was doing. Making the You Version App the first thing I open and read in the morning has helped me get my day off to the right start.

One thing though that I have learned from this over the last week is that I am craving Him more. I crave my Jesus time! It’s something I don’t want to miss. It’s something that I need and want.

I encourage you to try it. I promise you that it will change your life. Putting Jesus first in the morning will help you go about your day feeling refreshed and filled with joy.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Posted in Bible Study, Life, Prayer

My Jesus Time

If there is one thing that you have learned about me you know how much I love studying the Bible and spending time with Jesus. There’s nothing better then starting this new year off by making a commitment to spend time reading my Bible, studying Scripture, and opening time in prayer daily then now.

Today I would like to take some time to share with you what I call My Jesus Time. I’m going to be talking about what my daily quiet time looks like and hopefully some prompts to help you get started as well.

I would like to place this disclaimer that there is no right or wrong way. What I share with you is just what seems to work for me. It has taken me time to figure out what works and what doesn’t work for me. What works for me might not work for you. Figure out what works best and then stick to it.

My Jesus Time is usually in the evenings before bed. I have a chronic health issue that makes it hard for me to get up early in the mornings so I find doing my devotions at night works best for me. This doesn’t mean I don’t do something in the mornings, it just means that I do my in depth studying usually at night. In the mornings I do have a prayer time and read the verse of the day on You Version app as well as I’m reading the Bible through in a year chronologically using the She Works His Way 2018 reading plan.

The following is how I usually have my in depth quiet time in the evenings.


1. PRAY – Prayer is a very important part of my daily quiet time. I can’t stress this enough. Without prayer my life would be a complete mess. It’s one of the first things I do in my day. Usually I like to write out my prayers in a notebook or journal. However I realize that writing them out isn’t for everyone. It’s just something that helps me to focus on God and I love being able to go back later and read all my prayers.

Some prompts that might help you get started if you don’t know where to begin with your prayers.

  • Thank God for what you are thankful for
  • Ask Him to forgive you of anything you might need to confess
  • Pray on behalf of others requests
  • Ask Jesus to come meet you in your time in the Word
  • Ask Him to open your heart and eyes to what He wants to teach you
  • Pray for your day

After I spend some time in prayer I usually put on some worship music before digging into my Bible Study or devotional that I am going through at the time.


2. WORSHIP MUSIC – One thing that I love is listening to worship music while I am studying. Being in complete silence while I am reading the Bible or devotional is something I don’t like. In my experience I have found that I focus better with music on in the background.

My playlist consists of slower songs like…

  • Oceans
  • I Need You More
  • Revelation Song
  • Jesus, At the Center of It All
  • What a Beautiful Name
  • Overwhelm Me, etc.

I’ll be writing another article on worship music and playlists options because music is such a big part of my life and I believe that God speaks through music. We all can relate to that one song that was playing on the radio just at the right moment. At least I know I can.


3. JOURNALING MY DEVOTIONS – The next thing that I do after praying and turning my worship music on is dig right into my Bible Study. I like to follow a scripture writing plan. Don’t know where to start? Be sure to check out my scripture writing plan. You can go download it for free here. (Scripture Writing Plan). If you are anything like me then you will understand my love for journaling and writing down what God is teaching me. You can use any journal or notebook you have lying around.

Here are a few question prompts to get you started:

  • What does this passage tell me about God?
  • How can I apply this to my daily life?
  • What is this passage telling me about myself?
  • Is there something I can use to share Jesus and God with others?

I love using my Tending your Faith Journal. The idea behind the journal came to be when I was struggling to understand how to apply God’s Word to my life. It is split up into 2 pages per day. There is a section for gratitude, writing out scripture, how to apply it to our lives, prayer, and something you wan tot remember throughout the day. If you want to check it out you can find it here. (Tending Your Faith Journals)


4. BIBLE STUDY HIGHLIGHTING – When it comes to highlighting Scripture again I believe that there is no right or wrong way. If I am completely honest with you I never use to color code when I highlighted. It was just easier to pick up a highlighter and color the verse any which way. It wasn’t until recently that I found color coding to be helpful to me. The method I use to color code isn’t my own. My friend Amy Hale came up with this method and I just loved it so much that I adopted it into my own routine. You can change up the colors for each categories to make it your own. I changed up the colors a little bit to suit my style and taste. I changed the categories a little bit to make it easier for myself and the way I like to study Scriptures. Just remember that I don’t use all the categories all the time just when it fits the Scriptures I am reading for the day. 

  • GREEN – Anything about God, His character, names, or anything about Him.
  • PINK – Commands that I want to obey or can apply to my life. 
  • BLUE – Conjunctions/Interjections: and, but, therefore, introductions to thoughts,
  • ORANGE – Anything that are statements about a group of people or the church. 
  • PURPLE – Things and verses that would make good prayers for myself or people 
  • YELLOW – Anything else that doesn’t fit in any of the categories above

If this seems overwhelming to you with all these different categories then I encourage you to narrow it down to just these three, GOD, COMMANDS, and PRAYER. There will be another post on highlighting at some point. I will say though that once you get in the habit of highlighting and finding what works for you it will start to come natural. There will be times when I forget which color is which. Never fear because even if you make a mistake that’s okay. Your Bible isn’t suppose to be perfect. It’s suppose to be messy as you lean into all the truths it has for you.

One more tip is if a verse has more then two or three categories within it may be overwhelming to change colors or even frustrate you. Just take a deep breath. Remember to highlight the important parts of the verse. If highlighting the connecting words are too much then leave that category out all together. Just highlight anything about God and anything you should apply to your life and leave the rest plain.


So that my friend is pretty much what My Jesus Time looks like. Sometimes I do like doing a little journaling art drawing or lettering verses on separate paper or journals and then of course end with prayer again. I hope this gives you inspiration to dig into the Word and figure out your own person Jesus Time. I promise you that once you get in the habit of being in the Bible everyday it will change your life. It has changed mine. If it wasn’t for my quiet time and meeting with Jesus everyday my life would be a complete mess.

I’d love to hear about how meeting with Jesus makes your life better. Feel free to comment, send me a message on social media or sending me an email. I always love hearing from my readers and interacting with you. Let’s encourage one another this year as we make it a habit to be consistent in the Word each day.

Blessings, Grace Mae ❤

Posted in Goal Setting, Life

Reflections, Goals, & Hello 2018

Wow! I can’t believe that 2017 is over and a new year has begun. Usually I start out by saying that the new year is going to be the best one yet, however it didn’t go as planned the last two years so instead I am going to say whatever 2018 brings is okay with me.

2017 was a rough year for me. Although I was getting over a time of depression and grief with the lost of my grandma in 2016 and just starting to find my way back into the craziness of life another life event happened that shaked my world. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in May 2017. It was really hard for me dealing with all the doctors appointments and taking care of mom as well as taking care of my own chronic health issues. There were times when I felt that I was loosing myself but thank God I had a wonderful group of friends that prayed for me, supported me and encouraged me to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus.

I want to say that 2017 taught me to go deeper. Every hardship, every tear, every broken part of me made me trust God and seek Him more. It made me stronger and got me through all the nights of crying and asking why.

As I reflect and prayed about what God wants me to do for 2018 I’d like to share a few of my goals and visions.


1. Be Consistent in the Word Every Day & Read the Bible in a Year 

One of my goals is to be more consistent about spending time with God every day. There’s nothing better then studying Scriptures and digging to apply every single truth to your life that God teaches us in His Word.

I’ve always wanted to read the Bible in a year but never have. This year I thought it would be the right time to do it since I want to get consistent and intentional about having a daily Jesus Time. Last year I bought the Every Day with Jesus Bible but never used it so that is the reading plan that I will be following this year for my morning devotions.

“All Scripture is inspired by God and is profitable for teaching, for rebuking, for correcting, for training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work.”

❤ 2 Timothy 3:16-17


2. Write and Blog More 

My intention this year is to continue to write and blog and focus on my ministry here at One Girl One Life One God. You will see me posting more on my Instagram and Facebook for sure as well as here on the blog.

Writing is something I am going to take seriously this year. I’ve been going back to old school where journaling with a pen and paper is my only tools. Don’t worry I still use my laptop and phone for notes at times but nothing beats a piece of paper that you can write down your thoughts, dreams, prayers, etc and hold in your hand. I don’t want to miss anything that God is teaching or telling me. So I am going to be writing it down.

As the plan right now is to post weekly please keep in mind that quality is my priority so if I feel like I’m rushing or pushing to post that’s not my best then I won’t. You are important to me. I want to make sure the content of this blog is excellent and quality over quantity. My whole passion is to share what God is teaching me and encouraging others to grow in their faith.

“Therefore write what you have seen, what is, and what will take place after this.” 

❤ Revelation 1:19


3. Mentorship 

Mentoring has been something that God has laid on my heart the last couple years but I wasn’t in the right place or ready for that until now. In 2018 I want to mentor someone. The thought of encouraging, supporting, praying for someone to live the life God intended just makes my heart so happy. There’s no greater joy to me then seeing someone else be on fire and passionate about learning and growing closer to God.

Another thing is I’ve been praying for someone to mentor me as well. I long to have a relationship with someone that I can call or meet up with for coffee and talk about anything. I want a deep friendship that will last for a lifetime.

This is something I am praying really hard about and ask that you join me in praying too.

“Be diligent to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who doesn’t need to be ashamed, correctly teaching the word of truth.” 

❤ 2 Timothy 2:15


4. Build a Ministry Team 

Building a ministry team is something that I have been praying about for the last several years now. I want to join together with other women that are likeminded and passionate just like I am so we can expand our content and equip you with more resources and tools to help you live life with purpose and intention.

I’m praying that the right people will come at the right time. Eventually I want to be able to introduce the One Girl One Life One God team consisting of prayer partners, encouragers/mentors, creative partners, and writers.

The vision for ministry is expanding and I am looking forward to what God has in store in His timing. My prayer is for a team that will help me share the love of Jesus with everyone that will listen and encourage them to live life for God.

“Therefore, since we have this ministry because we were shown mercy we do not give up. Instead we have renounced secret and shameful things, not acting deceitfully or distorting the word of God, but commending ourselves before God to everyone’s conscience by an open display of the truth. But if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. In their case, the god of this age has blinded the minds of the unbelievers to keep them from seeing the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For we are not proclaiming ourselves but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’s sake. For God who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of God’s glory in the face of Jesus Christ.”

❤ 2 Corinthians 4:1-6


5. Intentional Prayer Life 

Last but most importantly I want to work on my intentional prayer life. Prayer is a powerful weapon and it’s one that I want to have. There’s nothing I love more then praying for friends and family when they ask me too. I want to make sure that my prayer life is strong and that satan will be afraid of it. Writing down my prayers is something I want to intentionally do this year.

“Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is very powerful in its effect.” 

❤ James 5:16


So what are your plans and goals as we start a brand new year? I would love to hear about them. Let me know in the comments or feel free to reach out to me by email or any social media accounts.

Blessings and Happy New Year, Grace Mae ❤